Hi there and happy New Year! I’m excited to be back after a holiday break! I took the time over my break to think about 2016 and what it meant to me personally. Looking back, I learned so much about myself as an individual.
2016 was a year of self-discovery for me. The year started with no school to worry about, I wasn’t pregnant, and I didn’t have a brand new baby. The year was wide open. To be honest, this brought out a little anxiety for me. For years as an adult, my days were scheduled out almost completely (as they are for most of us, right?). I took care of my babies. During naptime and after they went to bed at night, I worked on homework. Before babies, I was planning lessons at night and teaching during the day. And before that, I was working and studying in college.
So to be presented with a year of choices was a new experience for me and a bit nerve wracking. I was fortunate to have some side work for several months of the year that taught me some important lessons. I enjoyed having that work. It taught me that I could find balance in my goal and dream of being home with my children with pursuing other interests and passions. I was able to think about what I wanted my life to look like and I started having thoughts and ideas for future pursuits and opportunities. I also was able to really think about and visualize the type of mother I wanted to be for my children.
As the year went on and my anxiety dissipated, I started making plans and going for it. Starting this blog was a big one. I had felt the push for years, but kept pushing it aside because I thought I didn’t have time or didn’t feel “qualified”. Thanks to a little courage, and a few gentle pushes from my husband, I started this blog. After I did that, I felt a weight lift and my mind seemed to clear. I gained perspective and convictions about where I wanted to go in my personal pursuits. I continued to find opportunities and ideas continued to flow. Now at the end of 2016 and the beginning of a brand new year, I feel encouraged, excited and motivated to pursue improvement in all aspects of my life.
The most exciting and important thing I have come to learn is that just because I’m “an adult” doesn’t mean I am done and have to have it all figured out now. As cheesy as this may sound, the realization that I don’t have to have it all figured out now relieved so much anxiety for me. I was being to feel overwhelmed with the feeling that because I was an adult and a mom, responsible for three other human beings, I had to know exactly what the rest of my life would look like. The lessons I am taking from 2016 is that no matter how old we are, we continue to learn, grow and change. I am continually discovering who I am and what I want to give to the world- my own little world with my family, and the bigger world around me.
I am excited for the ideas and plans I have for this blog for 2017. I took a couple weeks over the holidays to really think about what I wanted this space to be for me and can’t wait to get started!
Thanks for stopping by and reading- I hope you’ll come back soon!